Living in two worlds, or even a multiplicity of worlds or levels of consciousness, and doing it consciously, is an interesting process. The games played on the computer are no less real than the games we play every day as “living life” (in its shallowest interpretation).
Said another way, at this time, my experience of everyday living is no more real than the games I play on Facebook. But this, of course, is only true if I experience everyday life at its most shallow. If I pay attention, and see the overlays and the forces that move in a hidden way beneath everyday life and experience, then the Facebook games are just a sketch, an attempt to make an everyday activity be pleasant and have no repercussions (except rotted fruit or hungry animals that are not REALLY rotted or hungry. No sweat.).
So trying to notice the hidden forces of life in an everyday context is a surreal process that tends to make one lose track of the overlay. Suggestion: don’t do this while driving…..
Tags: Degrees of consciousness
A hidden force in my life is the desire for escape that is fed by FB games and the internet in general.
Hi…you spoke of living in two worlds/a multiplicity of worlds.
Could this experience of mine be related to such ‘worlds’…or is it something different.
Recently I and my sitter-in-law stayed in the hospital watching over my unconscious brother who was waiting for a lung transplant.
During this time I lived in the present at the hospital, and conducting some work from there by Internet and cell phone, coming and going from my home attending to the daily duties.
At the same time, I would bring my SIL food for lunch when I came and talk about where she and my brother would take their next trip after Jim received his new lungs/new life…all the while waiting in hope and belief and disbelief and prayer that lungs would arrive in time.
On the other hand. As I came in to the hospital, I would stop at various funeral homes and gather information so as to be prepared IF that turned out to be the reality.
I felt lime I was living in three different worlds: the present, the hope for a future with new lungs and life just around the corner for my brother Jim, and the reality of a funeral just
around the corner.
Even going home in the middle of the night, 1:00-2:00 in the morning was surreal…a while different world.
My brother did pass waiting for the lungs…and I felt so much more exhausted than I ever had from the passing of my parents, such a different experience…I was wondering if it was the exhaustion of all the various worlds I felt I was living in simultaneously? Or should it NOT be exhausting living on the various planes of existence, thought, emotion at the same time and this was something completely different?
Thank you for your time…
Kathryn, first, my heartfelt love for you for the passing of your brother.
During your “surreal” time with your brother in the hospital, your personality boundaries were tending to get overloaded and having difficulty coping with all the possible “realities” that it was seeing as possibilities, all at once. This is certainly one type of multiplicity of worlds. That is why you ended up so exhausted, as you surmised. This is perfectly natural to all of us as conscious human beings.
The multiplicity of worlds I was referring to could be called, I suppose, a further step forward, or away, or I don’t know what. If you read the articles I wrote called “Interrelationship of the Kingdoms,” you might get a little bit of an idea of the “multiplicity of worlds” I was talking about. It is not the exhausting process of the layers you described and were trying to cope with, although it can be equally confusing if you do not have firm personal boundaries.
Quite often, people experiencing what you did with your brother’s process can go through enormous inner boundary collapses and their consciousness will “shift” to different realities. Then they will re-establish their original persona divisions and move on. It happens whenever there is huge stress. What I hear you describe is your trying to project which possible future may become the real one, and trying to live them all as real simultaneously.
Hope these remarks have been of some help to you.